Goodness, I am into my third week here in Kona, Hawaii. Its so crazy that I call this place home right now. So much has happened since Ive been here so I wont go into detail about everything. I guess I will start off with how I know this is where Im suppose to be. God has anointed me in THIS season of my life! The journey has just started, and I have so much more time to grow. 3 months will fly by sooner than I thought. The first week I was here we learned about hearing the voice of God, the second week was about the nature and characteristics of God and this week we are learning all about Jesus and being radically obedient.
God absolutely amazes me. The fact that I am in a school for 6 months with no other plans than to get to fall in love with Him more and more everyday is such a blessing. God is showing me SO much of his faithfulness and His consistency. This past week we had a speaker named David Gava. He is very prophetic and such an awesome man of God. On friday, the last day that he was speaking, our class just had a time of worship and prayer. David was praying and prophetically speaking over us as well as our staff. It was just a time to surrender to God and listen to what he was trying to say to us. So after worshipping for a while I just started talking to God. My leader asked the class to raise your hand if you hadnt been prayed for. So I did. I stood there and told God that I didnt want anyone to come up to me and pray for me just because I hadnt been prayed for yet. I wanted God to speak to me. So I waited for God. I also waited to see if David would pray for me. Nothing happened. I decided to leave because I didnt want to wait in a line to be prayed over and maybe prophetically spoken over. I left and went to the 24 hour prayer room we have on campus and just started praying. I started weeping, and I found myself almost mad at God. I was asking myself all these questions as to why I felt so mad, sad, and stressed. All the emotions just building up. I stopped, started praying, and God gave me just what I needed.
A revelation of his LOVE.
A revelation of his FAITHFULNESS.
A revelation of his CONSISTENCY.
All of my past relationships have been emotional high and low roller coasters. In this time of learning and growing God doesnt want me to have all these spiritual highs and lows, he just wants me to know and understand that His love and faithfulness is ALWAYS consistent. God is teaching me to praise Him during the struggles. To cry out to HIM. For so long I have depended on other people with my struggles, when something would go wrong I would immediately call a friend. God wants me to trust and depend on HIM. I had asked Him for a revelation of His love, and only did I realize a few hours later, thats what He gave me! Im still learning how God speaks to me.
So today I get a package in the mail. I had been expecting 2 packages from my mother. So I got this one today with random stuff in it like easy mac, instant coffee, a Jesus Calling book, homemade cookies, and a few other things. So as Im eating one of the cookies, I call my mom to thank her....... My mom didnt send any of those things. I look in the package again and find a letter from someone that says "Dear Gracie, You dont know me personally but my sons have been involved in YWAM which was such a blessing, I want to return that blessing in some way by giving you a package of things you might use while you are there. Please email me another person from engage dts I can send a care package to!" WHAAAAAT??? There was no return address, no name, just an email address. What a blessing from God! His faithfulness is amazing. I found myself weeping today during worship just because I am realizing how beautiful He is.
How much He loves me.
How much He cares.
He has given me such joy.
This love is so deep,
Its more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace,
Its overwhelming.
