Well this week, I actually have time to sit down at my computer and write. Yesterday I had 2 surgeries done on my mouth, I got all four wisdom teeth taken out and I had the first of four surgeries on my 2 false teeth. Yes I have 2 false teeth. SO, I'm in quite a bit of pain with nothing to do!!!
I just have to share with you all that God has provided the first 5,000 for my journey! How amazing is that?!? He not only has been blessing me but He has been teaching me every single day.
I'm so incredibly thankful for the month of November this year because it is a completely different season for me. Since I surrendered to Him, I've had times of weeping, times of joy, times of frustration, and times of gratefulness. Last month was just a month of frustration, waiting, getting impatient and God literally pulled me out of that season and the November 1st was a completely different season for me. God has been blessing me in abundance. This has been a time for me to just rejoice in his greatness, thank him for being my Savior. Ive never cherished a month so much. Also, I think the reason that my surgeries were at this time was to be able to literally lay at home and just rest, talk to God, and spend time with my family before I leave. This is really a special time for me, I've gotten so close to my family.
I went to a worship service this past Sunday with my dear friend Sally Jernigan. I had never been before so when I got there I just remained silent and waited for it to start. It was a small worship service of about 30 college students in one living room. About half way through, one of the guys playing guitar stopped and said, "We don't usually do this, and without moving too much, turn to the people around you and pray over them and this new season." So Sally started praying over me and my journey that I am about to be going on. When she got done, I kept hearing God say, "The only place Satan can get to is your mind". When I turned my head away from Sally, the guy next to me had his head down. So without even knowing really what I was doing, I laid my hand on Sally and I laid my hand on the guy next to me and started praying for them. After I was done he asked if he could pray for us, and when he did, he started admitting personal things about his relationship with God, instead of praying for us he was telling us what was going on with him. When he realized he was doing this he stopped mid-sentence and started praying for us. When he was through, I turned to him nonchalantly and I said, "I think I'm suppose to tell you that the only place Satan can get to is your mind. God has your heart, He has had your heart from the beginning and He had never and will never let go. Whenever Satan puts thoughts like that into your head just cry out to God, he will transform those bad thoughts into good thoughts." The guy looked at me like I was crazy so of course I say,"I'm sorry did that make sense?? Was I just saying that Satan can get to your heart? Cause thats not what I meant!!! I meant...." The guy stopped me and said,"No that made perfect sense, thats actually just what I needed. That has been my struggle lately." Later on this week I got to talk to the guy and he said that he had actually been crying out to Jesus when those thoughts came to his head, he said that he has gotten closer to God through it. That brought me such JOY!!!
Not only did God use me to speak to him, the guy learned something through what God had spoke through me. And not only did that guy learn something but I did as well. I was almost proud of myself for what I had to said to that guy.... but it wasn't me who spoke to him.... it was GOD. God spoke through me. I couldn't boast in who I was, God had CHOSEN to work through me. Truly rejoicing in Abba takes humbling. PRAISE GOD- for He USED me!!! What God taught me is that I will be tempted to rejoice in the little things or a "power" God gave me- but instead of rejoicing in HOW God used me, I need to rejoice that my name is written in Heaven. Beautiful.
Thank you Jesus for the amount of POWER that is in YOUR name!!!
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